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brain cream

by JAILL

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just a lovely day why'd you want me to hold you you hate me tonight you keep turning your back as we lay side by side i put my hands around your throat and make a most unpleasant joke then you tell me your windpipe's a bit to the left you push down on my thumb till you run out of breath i release and laugh about how it don't hurt there's nothing better and nothing worse we're not knowing the meaning behind what we said emotions i don't know their place sometimes they pour out of your face your eyes your teeth they penetrate and pierce me and then i deflate and quickly blow around the room it's ok i didn't want the moon only to share in a couple of clouds and if they break apart we're found but then it's just a lovely day why'd you want me to hold you until your heart aches i was wanting to fold you until your legs break i put my hands around your neck and to confirm what you already suspect i am willing to hold you as long as you'll wait

getaway check on myself emotional trash skinned to the bone cigarette ash smoke fades into the fan and the burning out ends look at yourself feeling like crap heart is a stone coming in last it'll get better one day and you'll be doing ok i help my loved ones getaway i help my loved ones getaway i help my loved ones getaway

got an f  Thick black coffee Sweaty feelings Palm mute mouths Into the evening I used to know tides that wash shit like this fast away Basement dwelling Traces of life Your responses died From hands that slight And narrow that nobody ever expects them to work Tell me how I should feel right now I don't wanna guess I will take your blaming everyday for puttin u in this mess U can take your love for me Say it's second best. U gotta b a good girl to your girls n u ain't failing this test, I got an f Light don't need me Night won't feed me I keep on starving For a slender body It could b mine but I'm telling yours is so nice Tell me how I should feel right now If u want me to know Don't u go a disappearing now while your friends say to lay low. U can take your love for me Say it's second best U gotta b a good girl to your girls n u ain't failing this test, I got an f
 

slides and slips  running from slides and slips saying i'll be there one day but i'm sick as i get tomorrow's on my lips still running from slides and slips must be a real fun ride down but it hides what exists near missing dips and kicks playing games high as shit avoiding things that are real for things i can lick suckers have appeal they believe in my drips still playing games high as shit explains why i won't call you back i'm as sick as i wish as i take all the slack ghost hopes a snack gets fixed running from slides and slips still playing games high as shit cause it hides what exists and i'm sick as i get ghost hopes a snack gets fixed

symptoms symptoms of a good thing don't bring headaches or fears for the turns it's more big smiles for some small shells forgot we found on a day of sunburns we swept up a huge mess saying much less about what might hurt i like the feeling of sand on my feet on the coffee table watching tv symptoms of a good thing wake up easy no regret alarm sun's high and so am i kitchen candle makes half the smells warm we walk from the same place in different ways different path until we walk right back and take hold of a hand and forget the cold wet way that it grasps we're happy all the time it's an emotional high we're getting close to the edge we're happy all the time it's an emotional climb we're getting close to it we're getting close to the edge symptoms of a good thing dreading nothing reality check cash it in a fake bank in the basement of your deficit one lurk and you're a jerk but these shadows are larger than life we could both fit and stay put and stay waiting for laughter to make our minds work

change reaction wisconsin weather in december has been staying north of freezing temps and it's better than i remember but i still take lots of slippery steps and i think there's gonna be a big change cause it's here that i have to say my love is gonna destroy you again on a bleak day january i'd forgotten that the sun exists i was weak when you first met me no growth cranial tectonic shifts and i think i'm always gonna sound strange cause it's here that i have to say my love is gonna destroy you again my love stays with the pieces again

picking my bones picking my bones positive feedback back back in your hole rising like steam to give me the big chest lean on a dream calling in quit never a nuance being the prick who was picking my bones picking my bones positive feedback back in your hole back in your tree back in the sky picking my bones

little messages of all the spaceships that could've landed yours was the worst conceived i've got to hand it to you completely for you to meet me you had to come so far i've been real distant little messages scrawled on spaceship walls they tell you how to fix your heart and engine stalls quick hop in my car i drive the beater we're going to my house cause i'm the leader and i've got a fireplace looks like a devils mouth we'll feed it every night till it warms our house little messages i type into my phone don't be a sweaty star try not to be alone little messages little messages i don't like where they go they're so hard to follow

draggin gold pile cave fears didn't hit me that hard i got elated drank hard and waited woke up a draggins despair fire breath hangovers aren't easily shared please please to hate me conquest to slay me after i burned down your lies well they took my breath away and you cry to convince me you feel pain but tears don't say where you been mood swings without drinks and these lives just got worse pain is a smooth curse sadness arrives first all of my scales need work your lies well they took my breath away and you cry to convince me you feel pain but tears don't say where you been why why would you want me to be seen as a mythical beast left with a cave of worthless things and why why would i let my princess leave unless i'm just too tired to be the monster that i've been

pointy fingers you pointy fingers i'll cut you off again tattoo you into my brain unknown length of stay but i know that the bright polish color won't change you pointed fingers only until we knew there was nothing to say no fouls to explain so we kept on our way to a place feels like nowhere we walk and work and wait and we wonder what we want its cruel its you pointy fingers you pointy fingers well how the fuck you back i've made thoughts so detached convince me i'm a lit match but we met so i know i should pull up or crash the compliments i paid you never stuck back and forth it's finger tapping stunts still somehow we find ourselves in luck the secret is that we fall down when we're drunk wait until sun up before we touch and then no kiss goodbye to hint that it was fun you pointy fingers

chocolate poison time why'd you tell me that i shouldn't lie now i have nothing to say or sign fibbing shit don't know language of hands strangle puppets and you understand then you check the tag to know the brand reconsiderations taking place wish her thoughts could take a bit more space not another ten year plan to chase i can't read a thing and not your face sexless underwear can include lace turn the faucet off i'm such a drip daydreaming about your perfect tits yellow driver sign cautions a dip bit my tongue that's me i feel like shit in the dying pan we're cut like strips being away is chocolate poison time ruins my streak of being borderline good guy bad guy with a new blind eye now i see a blur around your crimes wish i had a knack for nickeled dimes wish i had a dinosaur to kill wasn't me a comet got that thrill fucking hunters know they've got no skills it's gun verse run chorus never chill whoa your raptor voice is rather trill i like winter weed nowhere to go no one calls me on this telephone i eat cereal bowl after bowl and my friends can suck a dick this they know nothing that you want to ever grows what an awful person i've become no more school or reading makes me dumb only thinking on chord progresssions i retreat into smoke in my lung blow it out and hope she doesn't punch

look at you what happens now symbolic gestures is all we control look at us now don't want to hear about the big things we stole we can wrap our cat tails round our legs and be pissed off we can watch the seconds nervous tick past our first love what happens now there's ten thousand tears wall paper skin look at us now we bled the good out to feel extra thin we can no longer make up the ways we feel strange limbo lambada me and you brazilian ballroom on our backs at two not knowing where the days are going isn't that wrong to choose for likely fools what happens now to me what happens to me i'd all like to know what happens now to me what happens to me i all wanna know limbo lambada me and you brazilian ballroom on our backs at two not knowing where the days are going isn't that wrong to choose for likely fools  fools  fools